Sunday night.

I've just finished for the night.  I'm writing this while I take a rest... I'm TIRED!  Tonight I did a few minutes (seconds) of Tae Bo Elite, and I'm still too sore from my lower body workout last night for it to work.  I decided to do Aerobic Striptease.  I looked like an idiot, but I WILL feel it tomorrow!  I'm also really excited because I got through the whole video. :D  I've never gone through a whole video of anything before!  YAY!  So, that and a few minutes of light stretching to cool down and I'm going to call it a night.

Food:
Scrambled egg white
pita
5 T salsa
10 tortilla chips
Clif bar
same yogurt/fruit as before
serving of butter beans (gross)
one fried chicken thigh
sprite zero
diet hot cocoa with 1 pkt instant coffee and 4t Peppermint Mocha coffee mate
1/2 kraft cheese slice
1T light sour cream
glass of milk
banana
Chocolate Mint Sensation Jell-o Temptations

Weight: 224.8 lbs

I'll talk to you guys tomorrow!  Have a good night/evening!
<3

Saturday

I'm checking in early today.  Due to the Iowa game and my friend's husband being a total bastard, I need some release before tonight.  I'll update with food later, but so far I've had a Clif bar, same yogurt as usual, and same salsa/chip servings that I have been eating.  So, on to workout.

Yoga w/ball
gentle yoga stretches
abs
upper body
lower body

With all that, I've burned more cals than I've eaten so I need to find something to eat soon.  I'll update later. Have a good day/night!

Food update:
Smart Ones Breakfast quesadilla
one whole boiled egg
one boiled egg white

Day 4! :)

Last night kind of got away from me.  Sorry about that.  We ran into an impromptu food and wine party and while I didn't eat or drink much more than I should have, I wasn't about to try to keep track!   :)  So, I'm back today.  Let's see what I've done!

Food:

• Larabar
• small pc cake (ugh, it's finally out of the house! yay!)
• 2 boiled eggs
• 4T salsa/10 tortilla chips
• 1 sq Vosges chocolate bar
• Pita sandwich with: 1 slice provolone, meat from two hot wings, 1 leaf lettuce, <1 T ranch dressing
• 1/2C triple berry blend
• 1/2C dannon fit and light vanilla yogurt
• Odwalla Choco Walla

 Exercise:

• 20 min walk, 2.0 mph
• 10 min walk, 2.0 mph

Total: 1 mile, 30 min

Yoga w/ball: 20 min

Stretches: 10 min

So, I found this site, caloriecount.about.com.  Normally, I wouldn't use it because I not only have (had) my own plans, but I'm keeping track of my consumption as well.  When I got to the site, however, I found that it is MUCH more amazing than just that!  It tracks all calories burned for all activities, daily weight, calories and activity, and even gives you a daily nutritional analysis!  I found out I'm need to start taking my multivitamins again.  lol  Hello Flintstones chewables!  HA  You should all check it out, it's already helping me tons!  See you all tomorrow!

:)

What is your favorite weight loss tool?  Let me know!

(oh, and weight: 227.6.  Two lbs!)

Day 3

Not much to report today except that my hunger issue was MUCH better today!

Weight: 228.6 (down 1 lb!)

Food:

• Larabar
• 2C milk
• 1C Danon Light Vanilla yougurt
• 1C mixed berries
• 1/4 C granola
• 2x2 pc chocolate cake
• One fried fish filet
• 1.5C Progresso Light Italian Vegetable soup
• Grilled cheese sandwich, two slices cheese
• two oreo cookies
• 1C milk
• Odwalla Berries Go Mega bar
• water
• tea

Exercise:

35 min on treadmill at 1.9=1.15 miles

Doing better already!  Hope to have more good news to report tomorrow! :)  Have a good night everyone.

Day 2

Well, I'm having a little more trouble than I have the past two days.  My tummy does not want to shrink down to a reasonable size, it wants to stay large and consume massive amounts of food!  Still, I've eaten much less than usual, at smaller intervals.  My exercise today has included tons of mall walking.  That is going to have to do since I'm feeling so sick today.  (Thank you allergies!)  I'll make up for it tomorrow.  :)

Food today has been:

• Larabar
• 4 pc sushi
• Small (2x2) pc cake
• 3 jelly bellies
• 1 hush puppy
• 3 biscuits (see where the problem comes in?)
• 1T peanut butter with honey
• 1 cup Progresso Light Chicken and Dumpling soup
• Clif bar
• 1T pb with honey
• water
• tea

Going to bed early.  I feel horrible.  Talk to you all tomorrow!

UPDATE: I made myself exercise..... a little.

Crunches:

• Rep 1 - 15
• Rep 2 - 10
• Rep 3 - 5 

(I know.  I'm lame.  I haven't worked those muscles in YEARS probably!)

Push-ups (these are even lamer, they were the girly push ups!):

• Rep 1 - 10 
• Rep 2 - 5

Actually, I'm shocked I could do even 15 push ups.  I hate that exercise more than anything.  Part of that has to do with me being so clumsy, and I can barely keep my balance.  That's what core strengthening is for though!  

NOW for bed!  Good night!

Getting in shape

It's that time of the year once again where I feel like I have done nothing to better myself and that I need to start again.  I have continued to gain weight and my acne is starting to flair up (which sucks even worse since I never really had problems!).  I'm having a lot of kidney, back, knee and feet issues and it is enough. My friends are very supportive and know that part of this can't be prevented, but even if I'm destined to be overweight, I'm NOT destined to die from it.  I want to get my life back.  I want to be able to wear what I want, go to the beach (and be proud of myself while I'm there!), not be sick all the time, walk long distances with no pain, and be happy.  I haven't had that in almost four years.  So, starting today, I'm going to be brutally honest with myself.  This blog page will be mainly about my weight loss journey.  I will post pictures I hate, I'll keep you updated on weights, exercises and foods that change/help along the way.  Welcome to Better Health: Post 1.

Today when I woke up I actually wanted to work out a little.  Since I haven't in a long, long time, and I've gained a lot of weight since then, I'm starting slow.  I started out the day at 229.6 lbs.  I walked on the treadmill for 25 min at 2.0.  I have eaten a crab cake, 1 hush puppy, one piece of fried chicken, a banana, half a peanut butter sandwich, a "fun size" bag of peanut M&Ms and four pieces of sushi.  I have also drank water, and 10 ounces of coconut water.  Nothing else.  When I go to bed I will eat (because of my medicine) 1 Larabar, apple pie flavored.  Here is my beginning picture:

I'll update everyday with exercise and food consumption, with new pictures every month or so.  If anybody has any tips (at ALL) please let me know!

What is the hardest thing you've ever had to do?

Looking Back

In three days I'm going to turn 25.  When I joked about coming into my "quarter life crisis," I really didn't know what it meant.  However, this past week it's started to dawn on me a little bit.

Still Single

I look around and everywhere all I can see are people who are happy... with someone else.  I've always held the stance that I don't need a man/kids to make me happy, but lately that seems to be fading a bit.  I'm the only one left of my friends without someone, or without kids.  It's getting pretty awkward going out with them because I'm always the one who's alone.  I've also always wanted kids.  Ever since my "Doctor" told me at age 16 that I wouldn't have any.  That, of course, turned out to be totally false and I've had a specialist confirm that.  The past six weeks I've been babysitting (since I still don't have a job!) and it seems to be making things even worse, instead of contenting me.  Of course, that's one of those things that I'll never understand until it actually happens, and so I continue to wait.  Oh, and to make it worse?  I had a dream last night that I went to the Dr to try to get pregnant and he told me I was "too old."  What the crap?

No Diploma


I went to college for 4.5 years.  I have an AAS, which has proven to be completely worthless, and the second half I was a horrible student, with nothing to show for it but debt.  My first week at the university was the most horrible week of my life.  On a Wednesday, I got a call on the way to class that I needed to meet my cousin before I went.  I did.  I got absolutely horrible news.  I never recovered from it.  Even with counseling I haven't been the same since before that day.  I didn't care.  I almost still don't.  The difference is that then, I didn't care about anything and now, I just don't know what to care about.  To make it worse, the university staff handled my situation totally inappropriately.  I was told I was making things up and imagining them, and got "dismissed" as a result.  Hopefully when I go back (to a different school!!!) next fall, things will be different.  All I can do now is hope that something hits me over the head and inspires me again.

Missed Chances


I, not unlike most people, feel that things could be so much different if I'd just pulled the trigger.  On decisions, not a gun.  Granted, I've made plenty of decisions on a whim.  Going back to school, moving to Ames instead of staying where I was, applying for a job in London....  Which is actually my first missed chance.  I applyed for that job and the only thing that was missing was a work visa.  I actually had an interview if I could get that visa.  I didn't.  I didn't even try.  I'm still hoping that someday I can just pick up and move to another country, but that's not going to happen with babysitting money.  I could have moved to Tybee Island and had a pretty good job, but I didn't know anyone there so I didn't go.  I could have found someone to live with once I got there, but silly me, I didn't want to.  I've turned down dates for stupid reasons (haven't we all?).  Every decision I've made in the past 5 years or so is just coming back to haunt me.  Even if they shouldn't.

Overall, I've just been dwelling on the past, and things I can't change.  I get even more annoyed about these things now because I know that I can't do anything about it!  Hindsight is 20/20 right??  Maybe someday soon I'll find something that will make me happy.  I'm going back to school next fall, and that's a lot of time between now and then for things to happen!  Wish me luck!

Tell me what one thing would you have/do if you could have/do anything in the world.  Money is not an object, and anything is possible!


Have a good day everyone.

Katie :)

Bitch bitch BITCH!

This is the non-family portion of my pages that will be reserved for getting things off my chest.  Like this: A DVD got stuck in my goddamn MacBook and no matter what it wouldn't come out.  Tried everything.  Finally, after fucking my drive up by trying literally everything, I had to beat the damn thing till the DVD slipped out.  Now, nothing will go in correctly OR come out!  I'm even having trouble beating it!  Not happy with this.
Goodnight for now,
Katie